My life is plagued

This year is a disaster to me,
I know its just the start but i dont understand the game i have to play in life.Others look me as naive but i don't think so. I'm basically tired of living.I'm put on not to love the one i love.Sometimes when i get mad at myself,i don't even talk to my parents.I know time is runing short for them and i love them so,but,sometimes i just don't know how to express how i feel.The school i'm currently studying in really suck.Yes,i've made friends but the reason behind everything was that i accepted my fate. How i wish i could turn back the hands of time.I regret my whole life.I really do.My world is crumbling and i know i'm falling apart but,what can i do?