Fairy tale love

Dew,
Sorry i didn't write in for a very long time.My internet is still down and well i could only hop onto others' computer and it's really bad.Well, things are going on quite hmm... .. smoothly for me. My birthday past weeks back,29th of July. It was a grand party because the priest came and lots of people too attented my party.My classmates celebrated with me in class during communication skills lesson.It's all over.

Woah! I couldn't imagine time flies.On the 4th of August,Wednesday, i brought Marc and Lulu out to wild wild wet.We had loads of fun and well i really missed them.Sunday,they left for England and i felt rather sad though.Marc has grown into a very handsome young boy,look very much mixed chinese and british.Lulu...well,adorable and chubby =) On friday, i went back to Republic POly and well, they celebrated National day in a very unique way! Went out with Yun Jing ,Tracy and Wan Cheng (My orientation friends in RP) and things haven't much changed.They are still as friendly as ever and jese.....where can you find such people in Temasek Poly?

Temasek is where all the trouble happens.Shouldn't elaborate much.Ain't that click with my group of girl friends and some others.Well,when I went back to RP i wanted to sms Darren.Wanted him to come down and sort of chat with me but didn't have the courage because the other time when i went down, he was so busy and couldn't make time for me.Surprisingly, after my outing with my 3 friends in RP i smsed him and told him i went down and guessed what? He said :"why never tell me !!!?" hahaha! What a laugh! That is the kind of friend you will have in RP.Those sort who will miss and welcome you.Especially my readers from RP (Kuya,Winson). I missed all of you!!

Now, there's a real problem with me. I seem to have a liking for someone whom i am not suppose to like.I shall not reveal who is he because it doesn't matter.It's totally impossible because we are fated not to be in a relationship for life! Somehow,i pray i'll get through this.It may be an infatuation BUT i am sure that he is the kind i'm looking for.I guess i must confide in my Xiao Mei.Things are getting out of hand.This impossibility will never be possible because it is meant to be.Maybe my next life i will click with him?But for now, it's a never.

There are lots of good boys out there and i somehow pity them if they ever like me because i'm a weirdo.I do things weird stuff unlike many other and it's really weird.No one will ever understand the way i am.The more they wanna know me, the worst it gets.It happened to one of my poor ex-boyfriend.I did try to tell him about it but somehow,he won't listen and persisted but in the end,he gave up.I don't know but Yvonne was right about me.Yes,von,i yearn for some pretty boy out there to love me but it's not what it seems to be like in this practical world.I know you know what i mean.

Well,opportunity....what is it to you,dew? People say,don't let this opportunity slip away yet does one really know what and when is opportunity? When we assume that it is, we come to realise it is actually not and when we fail to see it,it is then an opportunity.Yes,confusing but more to contradicting.I can say, i start to understand this world even better.Nothing special about this world .It's just contradicting.That's all.

Catherine, that 2 years oath we made.It's coming to a year =) how do you feel? I want to take this 2 years as a doorview to the real world.I want to see a conclusion in who will actually love me and wait for me.*Haha* Two years is easy and well, i don't know about the boys around me right now.There are many doubts and i believe that one day, my dreams will come true.Yes,i may appear naive, so what?! I can't understand people around me who wants to grow up so badly!Well, if only life was a choice of our own.People do say it is but look and see, is it really that? It draws to a word contradicting again.

My dear lord, my wish to be a nun yet to have a fairy tale love.Which will happen? I'll leave it all up to you.Sometimes when i'm curious again, i shall ask you.My dear lord,your love is greater than any and i'm blessed to have you.I know that there are times when i asked tooo much "why" and may you forgive me for I,am only human.Sometimes,i make mistakes.
Dew, i will post the poems i wrote during my depression and i got lots of them so i'll post it as a new post rather than lump them all up.Here's a new poem.

Fairy tale love
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A natural hair coloured boyish look.
What adorable round eyes.
So teary yet so refreshing.
His smile so warm and sweet.
His smile shan't worn for I shall allow it to live.

Radiant is that look on his face.
Expressions shall do all the talking while our eyes meet.
Flawless will his skin be and how wonderful it is to see a dream come true.
Age isn't a matter, what's more important is the heart.
I shall look him in the eye to tell him how deep i've grown in love,and,this shall last.
Given a chance,may I hold him in my arms forever.
The time in our world shall stop the moment our hearts beat together.
Then, the time will come when he lays his care and love for me.
He shall love me like never before and that will be just a happy story.

We will love each other for whom we are and may believing be the strength for me to carry on living.
However,this will never happen to me.
I'm just a simple ordinary girl.
I'm just living in a fantasy world were the inexistent exist.
How i long for someone to hold my hands and take me to somewhere,some night starry.
We shall share the romance of finding ourselves in love.
That starry night can be told by a song and this song shall reign.
Who shall it be?
Who will it be?
Still, it remains a question.
As i said, it is a fairy tale love.
Fairy tales are meant to be believed by the naives,like me.