Melancholy Poems (1)

Dew,
Here are the poems i am talking about.These are what i wrote when i went out of Republic Poly.The sadness which roams in me without that school.I will post 4 poems at a time and well, there are dates stated below the poem showing when i wrote that.

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I wasn’t prepared at all but I had to do my final.
When everything was settled,My hard smile couldn’t hide any longer.
To the library I went.
Calmness embraced me.

Ashamed of myself,tears began streaming down my face.
What I’ve found, was all gone.
The place I used to turn to waved solemnly at me.
I tried to give it a last goodbye but it turned away.
It no longer wanted me to stay.
We knew , the longer I stayed ,the longer we wouldn’t bare to part.

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Another day is gone.
I was astounded that I survived another day.
I counted the hours that slowly past.
Each day, My eyelids are getting heavier.

When will my eyes shut?
When can my eyes shut?
Everywhere I go ,Weights added to my heart My tears await to flow.
An urge for me to turn to everything I seebut,I couldn’t put myself to it.
Each day, I lose a muscle to smile.I could no longer smile.

I am so desperate to weep.
I am so tired of being here.
The ground of my earth is shaking.
I can find nothing to hold on to.
Sooner, I shall die in my world.
By then,It shall rain tears.
Tears of melancholy.

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My miserable eyes laid on the mirror.
How ugly I looked.
Soon, tears formed desperately at the corner of my eye yet too weak to roll down.

Starry, starry night.
A song filled with emotions and memories.
This very song shared between me and a good friend of mine.
Happy memories crafted with them ,Now turned out to be woeful.
The emptiness in me returned.

I surrender.
I knew , I had surrendered long ago.
My shadow engulfed me .
I felt so cold.
Life is so cold…

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The wind blew away my emotions.
I lost the strength to find my emotions,
I lost the strength to carry on .
I let out a loud sigh,
I sighed at my life.

Any joke now, aches.
I blubber at everything.
Sadness bites me.
Regrets,I have all my life.
I am never happy.
Not that I am not contented with life,
just that it hurts badly to live on.

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