Melancholy Poems (3)

I wonder who am I, every time.
At certain point in time,
Life may look painless but when reality transpire,
it hurts.

Whilst crying bullet,
Words running dry each day.
In the stillness of the night,
The crickets roamed the greenery.
What a night.
The air was so still,
So humid.
Lost for words.

------13/06/04--------




Take me to a place where I belong.
I don’t belong here at all.
What are all these obstacles doing in my life?
Each time I overcome it, I grow weaker.

“Shouldn’t you be growing stronger ,silly?” The world asked.
At once ,
a depressed tear squeezed out.
The world now remained silent.

My inner voice shouted back ,”Can’t you tell that she is weary?”
The world kept laughing.
Why must I always be the bad guy
?Why are princess played by artificial matter.
I am really tired.
I am feeling enervated by all these reality.
I wish I could die.

-------29/06/04---------



How long can I hide my sadness.
I find myself wandering in gloom.
That very night when the whole world was asleep,
I went out of my mind.

I was back to hurting myself again.
I stood on the table overlooking the whole world,
Closed my eyes and began to sigh.
No tears.
No more tears.
I’m tired of crying.

My left leg stepped the wide window and my life was nearly called to an end.
I was happy to end it but disappointed to find myself breathing on my bed.
Why must I live till the point of thinking to end it?
Naïve is what everyone thinks about me.
Well , I’ve had enough.

But I must clearly state that one should never leave a tear to find that one day I am no more here.
Life is simple yet devastating.
I envy those who live up to it and sigh at those who are like me.
Look at me ,
What can you see?
Nothing but a failure.
A real failure.

--------29/06/04------



Sunset was different today.
Silver clouds joined in the art of the early evening.
A flock of birds flew past,
Creating a beautiful scenery overall.

Yet ,its more than a beauty to me.
A mystery of what the world holds.
As I walked towards the sunset,
The silver clouds turned silvery-orange.
It’s as though the sky was on fire.
But this beauty didn’t last long, just like rainbows.
However, that’s how the night starts to rule over the world.

----------1/7/04~2/7/04----------



Another minute past,
Time is slipping away.
Have you ever asked why are you living?

Have you ever tried to find the answer to it?
Have you ever finally answer all you questions?
Life seems so tough yet seems so simple at times.
This contrary is so mind-boggling

--------24/07/04----------